Tequila--wayyy too damn much Tequila
As I mentioned before..I'm currently in AA. I started drinking about 2 years after my car accident in 2013. At first it was just my regular partying..on the weekend and clubbing with my friends. Then it turned into picking up bottles of Patron during the week and drinking to chill or relax. Before I knew it I was drinking just about everyday, even when I met my current girlfriend, she drank with me.
I made excuses for my drinking, I am in pain, I'm stressed out, etc..my family issues--many of them serious all contributed to my downward spiral of drinking. On the outside I posted party pictures of liquor bottles and shot glasses..meanwhile I was falling into a deep dark depression no one even knew about.
On Feb 21st 2018, less than two weeks after my 42nd birthday, I made a foolish decision to drive my car after drinking..I ran my car into a ditch, thankfully didn't injure myself or anyone else. This incident encouraged me to stop drinking. I looked online and found a support group which works the 12 step with participants. And I also have a DWI now.
I'm facing my demons..all the pain I have been hiding..I am learning to cope without Tequila to numb the years of pain and mistakes I've never forgiven myself for..
One day at time is what they say. Running into that ditch represents the path I was on drinking everyday..no where fast. I thank God for allowing me to survive that accident and rescue me from myself. I feel like without that incident of driving drunk, I would still be drinking everyday. I'm proud of myself for putting down the bottle and picking up my self-respect. I never really felt good about myself drinking everyday.
I made excuses for my drinking, I am in pain, I'm stressed out, etc..my family issues--many of them serious all contributed to my downward spiral of drinking. On the outside I posted party pictures of liquor bottles and shot glasses..meanwhile I was falling into a deep dark depression no one even knew about.
On Feb 21st 2018, less than two weeks after my 42nd birthday, I made a foolish decision to drive my car after drinking..I ran my car into a ditch, thankfully didn't injure myself or anyone else. This incident encouraged me to stop drinking. I looked online and found a support group which works the 12 step with participants. And I also have a DWI now.
I'm facing my demons..all the pain I have been hiding..I am learning to cope without Tequila to numb the years of pain and mistakes I've never forgiven myself for..
One day at time is what they say. Running into that ditch represents the path I was on drinking everyday..no where fast. I thank God for allowing me to survive that accident and rescue me from myself. I feel like without that incident of driving drunk, I would still be drinking everyday. I'm proud of myself for putting down the bottle and picking up my self-respect. I never really felt good about myself drinking everyday.
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