Done!

I drove around for 4 hours
waiting for you to get off work
circles

I didn't have much
just a card
just some flowers
just all that I had

You wanted a cruise
You lied to your friends and said you went to Florida
You said that's where a person who cared would have taken you

I sat near tears
A jackass
For thinking my best would be good enough

You dragged me at midnight
to a Casino
I was tired too remember the right hotel
but you yelled and screamed how everything sucked

I felt so
stupid
so helpess
like an old man
fraile and gullable

Bleeding
Lonely
Hurting
Empty
I finally left at 5 am

I smashed the tulips
I took the card
and what's left of my self-esteem

Go to Florida
Go on a Cruise
Go to Hell

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