Troubled...

We laugh. We cry. We fight. We fester. I don't know where we went wrong. Things used to so beautiful, so tasty. Now it's just bitterness and anger. I keep thinking I need to change this, or change that. But the reality is: maybe we just aren't right for each other. The one single thought that I don't want to think. Even now, like someone spinning me around too fast, I feel queasy and dizzy..a bit lightheaded. Why is that thought so difficult? Because it would force me to accept, no matter how much we love each other, it won't be enough. And that's a very sober and poignant revealation. So now the question becomes...who will let go first. OR will there be a miracle between us? I don't want to let go...but do I need to?

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