Quixotic

You materialized at my place around 2'o'clock in the afternoon we chatted on my couch with Pandora in the background It's still crazy how I double-check my gear, ponytail and cologne before you get there We sat kinda like strangers at first... then you leaned over and cuddled under my arm We were talking about something that happened earlier but the positive energy of now was causing us to forgot the negative energy of then I felt my conscious ease into a kiss Your mouth calmed the discourse And we found resolution in an embrace I ended up asking if maybe, one day, maybe we could um move in You said how nice that would be and maybe in 6 months we could um maybe move in you told me how nice and "handsome" I looked and I felt school boyish then you told me how much you needed me and that's when I felt masculine and stroked your thighs as you practically were on my lap kissing me and stroking my ego I felt helple...

B eing with you has Revealed so much About me Your love has encouraged Me to face my flaws And repair my brokenness Your touch Has been a healing For my hidden pain From the first time You warmed my hands; To the kiss you gave me Saturday Your warmth has shone into Me and I’m changed All I want to do Is to be a better me So I can give you more The way you love me Is like gentle tulips Growing in the summer rain Refreshed and beautiful My heart like A seashell Is yours to put to your ear And hear my ocean of craving to be next to you I love when You stand close to me and look me in my eyes I draw in my breath slow As you kiss me like the sun setting gracefully, I forget where I am or what I was thinking As I taste your caramel lips I close my eyes And drift into your space And I know I love you with all of me I know that all I want Is to spend my life Growing with you I know that I want to Build a home and life With you I want to understand Everything about you I want t...

February has always been a very special month for me. First of all, my birthday is this month and I love birthday's, especially mine. Lately, I've found myself relaxing..yes relaxing, not getting all worked up over things that usually stress me out. I'm starting to realize that all that stressing never really solves anything. I'm focusing my energy on one word: PROGRESS. And so far, I feel like I'm on my way to accomplishng my career goals. Ive been submitting applications left and right and I'm waiting for responses. My relationship...ohhhhh the unpredictable circumstances. Well lately, we have made some PROGRESS. Actually I got really pissed about somethings and wanted to end it, she came over to my house at 1am, and well we talked...we ended up getting back together and that experience really helped to get us out of the rut we had fallen into. I think with her and I, we have to find a way to peacefully disagree and work through our differences. I think that ...

I can feel the drain in my face the draft in our conversations the dwindling of our intimacy slow evidence of decension unrescued emotions undone passion phases of the moon out of sync bruised I am alone without comfort in your lack luster love Copyright 2011 CS Knight

I t's a New Year, but unfortunately things aren't all that new. Now, I'm not going to whine like a baby. I'm just observing how many of my relationships and situations have eased into the new year right along with the idea of starting over. I'm going to be positive. I want to make this year, a year that I make progress in my personal life and reach my career and relationship goals. In fact, I didn't need a new year to change my attitude about things I didn't like or agree with in 2010. For starters my relationship has seen ALOT of ups and downs and I'm just not sure how to take it anymore. At one point I was determined not to let the status of the relationship have an effect on other things in my life, but I found that really difficult to do. So now, we are just taking things one day at a time. I haven't stepped away..or indulged in my infamous "check out" (that's when I just become indifferent about the relationship). I'm much m...

I wish this post was going to be happy, but it isn't. This is what happened Still Your Jadore and teddy bear are in my truck you tell me you need him to take care of your mom you expect me to be okay with him kicked back in your bedroom watching the game, because after all he is there to help with your mother I'm suppose to hold on for more than 30 minutes while you close the deal I'm expected to pay for hotel rooms they we didn't use Only long enough for me to scream your name once It's 6am, I got to get up from your bed and your house because he is coming to have breakfast with your mom We can't get married We can't move in I can't come over because he is already there You want me to stand holding my heart my longing and all my needs still silent and beneath your husband

T iny things I notice all the time a half smoked black and mild strawberry flavored chapstick jammed between the sidewalk crack Wondering about all things that will be in the future you know after we are all gone 200 years ahead Saddens me sometimes to think of things new; old and thrown away todays sudans tomorrow's junk car piled up like metal mountains Holidays approaching I'm going to enjoy before its history Are we but much different our youth and beauty strong and vibrant yet we are falling into being wrinkled and gray day by day Things I don't want to think about but have no choice when I talked to my Grandma today Once she was more like a movie star long locks and high cheek bones I have to acknowledge or at least consider I too will wither... Copyright 2010 CS Knight