After Part II

I'm beyond regret
I feel down right stupid
for allowing you to treat me
the way you did

Sitting outside
of your place waiting for you like a teenager;
Being neglected for hours
as you withdrew from me
You said you had to work
Yet, the work was always undone

You never wanted to spend time
with my family
You made up excuses to block any closeness
and I let you

Instead you bragged about
your exes
and me spellbound by the love I thought I had
let you

Where is my self-esteem?
Why did I stay as long as I did?
After two days of thinking
so much is clear

You took advantage
of my feelings for you
you trampled my thoughts, my emotions
because I let you

Me, I thought if I kept
trying, kept showing you
love, that I would be accepted
and the love would be returned

Instead you slyly
pushed me further and further away
it was subtle..
we didn't spend time the way we used to
our conversations dried up
and our days became predictable

Meanwhile,
I blamed myself
I questioned you
and you would deny
how you really felt

But it's going to be alright
I'm watching your ship sail away
Go, quickly
Let my clarity of what you are
lead you away