Stupidity

There is no one to blame but me

Your attitude, your lack, your lameness

Was apparent from the first time

I asked for more than you wanted to give

Which was your time

You scolded me about how all important your job is

And how I should never DARE to ask you to make time for me

Foolishly, I thought surely that would change

Then I asked you to spend time with my family

You said you had to work

You said you were much too busy

 I made excuses and time ticked by

Foolishly, I thought surely that would change

I asked you to accompany me out of town

My daughter had an event

You said you really didn’t take time off for those kinds of things

I grew accustomed of going alone

Telling myself this is what people in a relationship do for one another; compromise

Foolishly, I thought surely that would change

We would break up for very good reasons

You didn’t like my lifestyle

Too much family, too many kids, too little travel

You wanted to leave and I would beg you to stay

Convinced you loved me and wanted a life with me

You rejected every part of that and

Declared you would NEVER build a life designed together

You had too many other things to do and a family wasn’t your thing

Foolishly, I thought surely that would change

Until one day,

I woke up

I saw you were never going to be the person I needed you to be

And no amount of love, patience, or explaining was ever going to change that

And your recent squawking about my money and how I should spend it; wasn’t working for me

So finally, I changed my mind

We aren’t good together

Never were

It was more rain showers then sunshine

I was lost in time

Waiting for things to turn into something beautiful

But the longer I stayed with you

The uglier I would become

Hurt, rejected, and ridiculed on a regular basis

I ALMOST started to believe I couldn’t do anything right

That’s when I let you go

That’s when I gave up all my stupidity