Quixotic

We have had an adventure 250 mph 1000 foot drops included heart-pounding moment of silence and what do you just say? all make us the colorful couple we have become more like training or a crash course in compromise I've learned so much from you and I feel changed from knowing you We went out to dinner held hands exchanged cards and celebrated our anniversary I want many more I love you EJF Copyright CS Knight 2011

i don't know why i kid myself i don't want to leave you i don't know why i hide from my own thoughts i don't know why i can't just be sometimes always moving from one place to the next searching for growth and answers i have to ask myself am i afraid to win? am i afraid to be happy? why do i always hold myself back from success well today i'm launching into the abyss of confidence in who i am all of my inhibitions concerns hang-ups discarded and just free fall into me seeking nothing but inner peace

It's hard to believe that just 1 month ago we were so damn happy Now I'm sitting here wondering how can I stay? You say, I haven't given you what you need I don't give you enough understanding The thing is when I try to give you understanding You silently leave me sitting in my wonderment I can honestly say this is the first time I didn't see it coming It felt so good along the way I ignored every taste of discomfort disillusioned I happily went along with your bullshit Now I can see that what is coming Is much worse Way more lonely then the lonely nights I already have I gotta learn not to text you Or care as much I caught myself today staring into the space before my eyes stunned and kinda stupid thinking about all the things you said to me I just don't think I have the strength to trust you the way that I need to You can blame my ex wife the way you always have she lied, cheated and mislead me for 8 years Now when you say you going